Looking back over my life I can say with some authority that I have had reason for anxiety. There was the dysfunctional childhood, the early marriage and subsequent divorce, the remarriage and blending of a family that blended about as well as oil and water, jobs that sapped every bit of energy, going back to college and starting a new career in my forties-I joke about being the only student in my math class who was having hot flashes while sitting in the front row on finals week...I could go on.
But God. The divine conjunction...but God. He has been with me through every season of my life. He's been there when my life has been so glorious that I've felt like racing to the top of a mountain and dancing on it's pinnacle. And He's been there in the darkness of my bedroom when I've been crumpled on my bed like a piece of discarded paper, sobbing until I thought my eyes should swell shut. And yes, I survived and lived to see another sunny, glorious day.
Do you know what this friend, this God, this Jesus is to me? He is my ALWAYS. My constant. He is the land I see on the horizon when my ship is tossing wildly in the storm. He never leaves me, know matter how crazy or stupid or stressed or fabulous my life becomes. And it has surely been all of those things...sometimes all at one time! Yes, he is My ALWAYS.
Today I previewed a lovely book by Angela Thomas called "When Wallflowers Dance". There was a quote on one of the first pages that I know was placed there just for me.
"Consult Not Your Fears but your hopes and your dreams. Think not about your frustrations, but about your unfulfilled potential. Concern yourself not with what you tried and failed in, but with what is still possible for you to do."
Pope John XXIII
How about you? Are you consulting your fears or looking at what is still possible for you to do. I pray that if you've 'happened' upon this post, you'll know like me that the words were placed there just for you!